Stargazing...and other stuff

 So, it's 3 days before my 25th birthday, and like so many times before, I'm sitting in the dark surrounded by the images of days gone by. Or something like that. I was asked by my better half whether or not I was panicking or at least scared about my birthday. She was shocked when I told her I wasn't. She then alluded to how I may feel this way, because most people do, freaking out about they haven't accomplished anything yet, a quarter of their life gone, yadda yadda. Here's how I see it: All I've wanted in my life, all that truly mattered to be, was having that one special person in my life, having a good circle of friends that I care about, and living independent from my family. Everything else, while they may be important, not what I count towards feeling whole inside. I can look at myself in the mirror on my birthday and say that I have a good woman for support and love, I have some of the greatest bunch of assholes scalawags around me, and I live (relatively) on my one, away from my family, in a nice quiet house in a nice secluded neighborhood. I've had a steady job for over a year now, and I'm close to graduation. I don't stargaze. I walk around the city looking up at the big, nice apartments and get jealous at what I don't have, I look straight ahead, at my next destination, whether it be a straight path, or up a hill, or down  a few stairs. I don't panic at how I'm not where I "should" be, I relax thinking about where I'm not anymore.

 I guess I can chalk it up to being appreciative of the simpler things in life.

 Speaking of simpler things, I guess I reached a pinnacle of thinking when it comes to evaluating my beliefs and values. I see myself as a sort of traditionalist, but I guess I'm more of a moderate when it comes to my personal leanings. This is significant, only because it makes that giant file cabinet of thoughts in my head easier to classify. Maybe another time I'll go through what exactly I think about, theologically and politically. I think they deserve their own posting.

 So, because living in New York (and living in general) is expensive, I've dusted of my (softmodded) PS2 and begun hunting down all the old games I've always wanted to play. So far, so good. Right now I'm starting YuGiOh! Duelists of the Roses. It's a strategy game based of that soul sucking piece of crap card game (which I used to play religiously when I hated myself), as well as being loosely (looser than my ex-girlfriend) based of of the historical War of the Roses. I love this game, mostly because I love strategy games, and this keeps me away from playing Disgaea, which if you knew was the gaping void for all of my friends who've played it. I wish they remade this game, give it HD graphics, an achievement system, give it some dlc cards, make it longer by adding more characters from the GX or 5D series (not Zexal, cuz that shit can like the shiniest part of my sack). Of course, that would involve effort, and caring about the fans when  you already got their money. Working with my PS2 makes me miss my modded Xbox, and wish I had it with me (or rather, wish it was cleaned out so I could have brought it here). More importantly, I wish I had the time and money to invest in tricking my stuff out, maybe maintaining them so they can last in the long run.

*sigh*

I don't have time for much of anything. But, that's because I'm taking 3 classes this term, and that's killing me.
At least I'm making decent money.

3 days.